who i am is inspired by where i've been

I've been to New York. Lived, breathed, felt the energy of the city for an entire year, though felt as if I had been a visitor by the time the year was over. I've been to the South. Fell in deep, true love with the beach, the heat, the music, and slow slow passing of time. I'm nostalgic for the freedom that I unknowingly had at that point in time- no money, friends who were just as free, time, space, the constant smell of the ocean. Now I am in Boston. I have the ocean. I have the sun. Some days my heart is so full I can feel it swelling inside of me. Other days I feel as if I do not know who I am. I have always had both types of feelings, even when I was young. Both sides. I want to find out and I want to feel everything more. I want wholeness and contentment. I did feel this type of complete when I lived in Italy. I have palpable moments in my memory, times when I literally felt that there was no where on earth that I would rather be at that point in time. I felt no longing. My mind was completely present and I was incredibly happy. I felt pure love for those around me. I want to feel this way every day. I am dedicated to finding that contentment for and with myself. I do not want any bad days.